Running..................well, I HATE it. It is not in my top 10 of favorite ways to exercise.
But, sometimes I just have to prove to myself that I CAN do something.
So, when my pocket pal, Kim,
Because, I would hate to think that anyone (especially a friend) did not get a good workout because I am too slow to keep up.
It was decided that I could fall behind if needed. Kim could run ahead of me and keep her pace.
We weren't running a marathon. Just one mile (don't laugh.......you have to start somewhere) at a steady pace. Then we would walk a mile to cool down.
In my head, I know it is just a mile. I know that I can do it. But still, sometimes, that voice gets into my head and says there is no way I can do something.......because I see myself bigger than I really am.
I really wish that voice would leave me alone. Let me be. Let me realize that I am an average size now. But, even as the voice gets fainter, I can still hear it.
Will it ever go away? Probably not. But, I am learning that I need to prove it wrong. To prove to myself, that I am capable now. That I am no longer that 318 lb. woman.
I ran a whole mile right beside my friend. I did not stop. I did not need a break. I did it. Because I can now. Because my body is physically capable. Because I am strong.
I ran...........JUST BECAUSE I CAN.
Kim and I before our run.
And after..............but smiling. Even though I am sweating like a pig in the Texas heat.