Monday, May 28, 2012
I have had a lot (by a lot I mean more than 3) of people come up to me and say: Don't look at me because I have gained so much weight.
These are friends or acquaintances. People that knew me when I was truly heavy, and now they know the "fit" me.
I don't know what makes people think that I will think any less of them because they have put on a few pounds. Is it because I "skinnied up" as someone so eloquently put it?
Of all the people in the world that would be judgemental (especially when it comes to weight), it wouldn't be me. Truly. I am one of the most unbiased people you will ever meet. And if you are worried about a few extra pounds that you have put on, well, that is between you and the scale. There will be no judgment here.
Is it because they silently judged me when I was at my heaviest? If that is so, then trust me......I want to always remember how I was treated. And I have vowed to myself that I will NEVER EVER EVER forget how it felt to be judged by so many people.
It is strange being on the other side of this situation. Almost unsettling.
But this I promise to myself: I will NOT forget where I have been. I will NOT forget this journey. I will NOT forget how I felt to by weighed down by others and my own judgement. I will NOT forget the woman who sat and watched her life unfold in front of her. I will NOT forget how it felt to be the fattest person in a room. I will NOT forget the fat girl that is still inside of me.
Instead, I thank her.
Because of her, I am a more caring, less judgemental person.
Posted by Brenda at 7:54 PM