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I am a 39 yr. old stay at home mom to 3 girls ages 10, 9 and 7. My goal is to be fit by 40! I want to lead a healthier lifestyle. I was banded on 4/5/2011. I tend to be a bit on the sarcastic and cynical side. I love to read, hate to excersise (but am learning to tolerate it!), love to shop and want to smack anyone who is a size 2 (not really!). I am learning to work with my band and my new self one day at a time!

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Monday, August 29, 2011

Head Games

This weekend I had to go shopping for a dress to wear to an upcoming wedding.  Being that I live a town that has Wally World and a few other small stores the options were limited.  Even more limited when you want to go to a plus size department.

I went to Cato.  Why?  Cheap, trendy and available.  I tried on several dresses.

I ended up picking out a really cute short dress with pockets (I LOVE pockets!).  It was perfect.  What was even more perfect is that I fit into a 14/16W.....the equivalent of a 1X. 

I haven't been down this low in at least 5-6 yrs.  I guess my morning walks up and down hills are paying off.

I should have been content with the 14/16 right?  But, in my head I HAD to try on the bigger size.  I bought an 18/20.  Now before you comment on how ridiculous that is, I already exchanged it.  I took the dress back the next day and got the 14/16.  But, it freaked me out.  Being in the smaller size.  I just couldn't comprehend it.  Why?

Head games.  Don't our brains play tricks on us?  Make us think there is no way we could fit into a size?  No way we are smaller?  Surely, we are just as big as we were. 

Weight loss is such a mental game.  Sure my scale was down 2 lbs. this week.  Mainly because I got my ass moving.  I did not skip a day of working out.  I basically ate right.  But 2 lbs.  how can that be?  But it is.  IT IS.

Sometimes this process is so frustrating.  I know I am doing what I am supposed to, I know the scale is going down so why can I not accept this?  Surely, I do not look the same as the woman who weighed 95 lbs. more.

Self acceptance is hard.  Self acceptance is also necessary.  Especially as I get closer to maintenance.  I have to learn to love myself.  So I can succeed and keep this weight off.

That to me is the hardest part of this whole weight loss journey..............self-acceptance. 

4 comments:

  1. Congratulations My Friend! I know how hard this journey is. Wait until your brain just can't comprehend the fact when you fall below the 14/16 and no longer are considered plus size and you get kicked out of the plus size section!!!!!You have to retrain yourself for sure. When I could no longer shop at Lane Bryant, I was like what am I going to do now? Where am I going to find clothes, Lane Bryant is MY store! It was hard for me because I had to learn how to shop for the new me.
    Keep up the good work!
    Hugs,
    Kristin

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  2. Proud of you and your 14/16!

    Glad you got out and did some shopping, too bad we couldn't hit up the thrift store together! :)

    Also, where in TX do you live? Ft. Worth is like 2 1/2 hours from me. LOL

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  3. I understand it takes awhile for our brains and new bodies to sync.

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  4. Congrats on the small size!!! It is totally a mental game, but you're right it does take accepting ourselves and being comfortable with where we are today.

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