I found this status on a friends wall on FB.
Once you've made a decision to move on, don't look back. You will never find your future in the rear view mirror.
Talk about true! For so long I have been glancing in my rear view mirror. Comparing myself to my past self. What I used to be. How skinny I was once. No wonder I felt discouraged for so long.
You see, I am not the same person I was 5, 10, 15, 20 years ago. I am an ALMOST 40 year old woman who has given birth to 3 beautiful girls.........all via c-section. No matter how hard I try that flat stomach is just not achievable unless I go under the plastic surgery knife.
I have earned all my tiny wrinkles around my eyes (they are starting to show up more as I lose weight). My tata's..................*sigh* I joke that they look like a National Geographic picture of a woman who has never seen a good bra. Again, I have nursed 3 kiddos.............plastics may be in my future if I would like them to point North again.
What I am saying is I AM NOT PERFECT. I never will be. And the more I take a good look in my non-rear view mirror the more I am okay with that.
Being fat has made me more conscience of other peoples feelings and for that I am grateful. I used to wish that I had never gone down this road. I am beginning to see that this journey will make me a woman that I will really like.
I have said before that I hope I keep my fat girl personality in a new skinnier body. That is still my hope. I NEVER want to forget where I came from and where I am going.
But, I will no longer long for the life that I see in the rear view mirror because each day this journey just gets more and more amazing.