Junior ROTC Marine Corps Ball 2012
Me, Georgia and Kevin
Me and Georia all dressed up
Georgia being escorted to her seat
Georgia and Kevin (A.K.A. Daddy)
For so many years I went through life sleep walking. Not being present in my life or the life of my family. I made excuses to not go places. I hid away from the world because I was embarrassed and upset with myself for letting myself get so heavy.
Well, this weekend I did something totally unexpected. My husband asked me to attend a Junior ROTC Marine Corps Ball with him. I didn't even hesitate. I just said yes. I am sure he was surprised by my response. He is used to me trying to get out of going anywhere.
He just happened to have an extra ticket and my youngest daughter (who is in love with all things dressy and princess-like) asked to go with us. I got myself ready and curled her hair and let her put a little glittery makeup on. She felt like an 7 year old princess.
I almost cried when the Marine asked for my permission to escort her to the table and also later when he asked if he could dance with her. Just watching her little face light up made my night. She danced with my husband when they asked the men to dance with their favorite "gals". She danced with me. She was in heaven.
Sometimes, it pains me to think of the things I missed out on because I was too scared to face life when I was heavier. I can't imagine all the times it must have broken my girls heart to watch their mom retreat from events because of weight.
But now, I have another chance. Another chance to be present in my own life. To see what happens when I actually start living and embrace life.
I won't squander it away this time. I will live life to the fullest. That is a promise I make to my family, friends and mainly to myself.