Dear Past Me,
At this very moment one year ago you are being wheeled into pre-op. You have NO idea how your life is about to change.
I know you are scared. Don't be.
A tiny piece of plastic is about to give you the will to fight. The will to live again. The courage to make you do things that you thought were impossible.
A tiny piece of plastic will give you hope.
A tiny piece of plastic will give you the strength to face your fears.
A tiny piece of plastic will help you understand that YOU are strong. YOU are a survivor. YOU can do anything you set your mind to. YOU are worth saving.
You had it in you all along. It was just hidden under layers of self doubt, self hate, depression and fat. As the weight comes off you will find yourself questioning why you let yourself think you were not capable of making the changes to get your life back.
Do not question yourself. Just live. Live and love life again. Live and enjoy your kids laughing. Live and realize that your husband loves you. Live and understand that you will love yourself again. Just live.
You have been given a gift. An opportunity to correct all the damage you have done to yourself. Embrace the gift. Accept it. Live.
I am proud of you. This is the first step towards a much brighter, happier and healthier life. This is the first step in taking control of your life back. It is the first step in living again.
You just made one of the best decisions you have ever made. Do not be scared. Just enjoy. Just live.
Know this: YOU are worth it. YOU are worth saving.
I am enclosing a picture of you one year post-op. Yes, that is really you. Really it is. Hard to believe right?
Anything is possible as long as you believe in yourself.