I have finally noticed a BIG difference in the way people treat me.
I get my door held open for me. People make eye contact. Strangers approach me. I am not ignored.
Funny isn't it that when we were really large we were ignored? When we needed the most compassion we got none.
I will say that I am sure I treat the world a lot differently than I did 97 lbs. ago. I am sure I make eye contact more, that I smile more and that I actually start conversations now. I hold my head a little higher, fix my hair, wear makeup again.........I just feel better physically and mentally.
I think that what we put out there in the world we get back. Kind of a Kharma thing. If I put out negativaty, how can I expect to get positivity back?
But, it has become blatentley obvious that men especially are treating me different.
Yesterday, I had to take my flat tire in for repair. The salesperson not only opened the truck to get out the tire, he hauled it in for me. He asked me my name. He held the door for me. Would this have happened when I was 300 lbs.? Probably not.
The world is kind of funny. We are a fickle beauty chasing species. Is that fair? No. But it is.
I really don't know what to make of this newfound treatment. Part of me is sad that we put so much stock in beauty and being thin that we do not see true inside beauty. Part of me is offended (yes, the 300 lb. girl wants to punch someone). And part of me feels like I have worked hard so I should just accept it.
I will tell you this, I will NOT ignore people. Thin, large, short, tall..........everyone has something to offer.
And, that is what makes me glad I am going through this journey.